Check mate! Game over!

Check mate! Game over!
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Check mate! Game over!
I play "mates" with my play-mate,
Eating dates on late night dates,
Fatefully searching my fate...
Still chasing my date with destiny.
Defying the destined destination.
The density of this chemistry between her and I is archaic,
My eyes cannot believe, thoughts could not conceive
Past ways had to yield and concede
Finally believe from my deeds
I'm not too manly to be a man
A real man, reel the bait in
Caught the real one
Made me a new man

I wanted you physically not mentally
Not permanently
Just temporarily
Definitely not spiritually
Though the deed itself is actually
An action so beautiful and undeniably
Spiritual

The tag on the motions of my emotions
Is too costly to not be ghastly!
And although I'll play tag,
Thoughts jet through as my mind lags

And although I struggle to stay humble
Mind rumbles as thoughts tumble
"Be humble" my spirit says,
I'll stay in my lane - thoughts I tame
Doesn't mean I'm lane or maim

Give it time and when your time ceases
We'll decode if the decadence
Of your discourse still lives in a decade!
Yes, I'm a headache! 
Your consciousness rearing it's head
And the truth still you dread
You've been misled!

Snake filled fields I tread through,
Too familiar with this path
Highway to my destiny they tell
'Highway To Hell' replays in turn
Take the wrong one; pop the wrong
Pill ; Blue or Red Mr Anderson?
Fake or real? Harsh or soft?

We all worry about the same things
But never say a thing to solve things! 

Common sense is not common but 

Like my man Common says: 

"...Freedom is an unspoken sound and
a wall is a wall it can be broken down"

But the hypocrisy of our actions keep us 

Acting as stars in our own flicks - fickle minds 

And mine is no different to be relevant 

But as this epiphany takes hold, 

In my mind, I eloquently vow to be bold! 

This unsung melody I'm never too old

The canary in me cannot be tamed 

I maintain and my wings I finally flap 

Game over as my mind becomes sober

The poison of self doubt I conquer 

This game has run it's course 

The end is also the beginning

Check mate! Game over!