Looking Past Me; To The New Me!

Clichès, past these pasts 

Liars and their lies... 

Players and their lairs - 

The devil is a liar - 

No fair play, stay as we 

Lay you with flair; 

Maybe you'll toss your hair? 

Show off! Blow off! Write off! 

Breakfast again, thinking again... 

Dreaming, 

Mind bleeding again! 

Slipping, 

Reeling again, 

Caught and dropped the bait 

Wait 

Should I stop - no longer on top? 

Red light to green light - no amber - 

No go slow... These roses die slow

Mirror images of a good soul...

Good guy gone bad - no Rihanna! 

Bye bye baby... Maybe 

Double back and drive back? 

Rack up a few miles as I race back? 

Grab it, tap it as I go bare back?  

Nevermind, Nirvana I've found! 

If dreams were movies... 

Mine are 4 dimensional 

Unconventional, emotional, 

Inspirational - at times irrational! 

My biggest movie became a true story! 

Don't worry, slowly it will slow me, 

Show me to move slowly - 

Not lonely, or coldly, but surely! 

The story starts boldly; 

The hand I dealt - I fold! 

Shuffled, re-dealt and replayed. 

Fairy tales sold, strange tales told, 

Mould my soul as was told... Foreword 

My book begins, 

I'd look but I'm hooked! 

The destiny I ran from has found- 

The dreamer fairy tales had bound! 

Life has finally ground me! 

Both feet firmly planted, 

My seed sowed 

Behind me is the past me-

I'm looking past me to the new me; 

Me and mini me! 

I'd murder me for mini me! 

Silly me, 

Took mini me to change the silly me! 

I was feeling me! 

Stupidly, cheating me! 

Wasn't seeing me! Just 

Mirror images of the old me...

Ghosts of the real me! 

Casper flying, lying to the real me! 

I'm reeling, rewinding, replaying me! 

No more playing me - praying for me! 

Feeling brand newish 

Lehayim! Rich like I'm Jewish! 

Money used to be my wish... 

Llife blessed me with a bigger wish! 

As the story gets oldish 

Realise I'm dining from a new dish 

Options changed - this is shish 

Untainted and without blemish! 

I'll enjoy the joy with relish! 

With love undying, I'll lavish 

The unforeseen wish 

That caught my leash! 

Finally I'm settled... 

New levels to wrestle 

With mettle I'll challenge levels 

Never settle on your journey's vessel! 

Attempt to change your levels 

Aspire past desires; 

Prise your mind past 

Mindless behaviour of days past! 

In the end, the prizes won't last, 

Conquests become lost and cost 

Too much to mean too much! 

Forward I march, and after March 

With much joy May I match 

The joy that life brings. 

K. Mutembei. 

November 2013. 

Daydreams & Dreams; Of Life & Love.

Having day dreams with vivid visions 

Of screams, moans and groans! 

Reminisce of grips and whips 

Scratches on my back 

Scratch turned scars - 

Itching... Twitching... 

From strokes of my whip  

Cramps in cramped spaces, 

Hot air in places - breathe in, 

Brace... breathe it out! 

Everybody falling... I keep failing... 

I lied... 

Said I don't keep score but still sore 

As memories float to the fore 

Maybe I'm bored... 

Perhaps I dared ensnare the snake; 

To make it lie down I lied 

The train I rode - pussy express 

Metal to the floor, 

Going for the medal 

True... 

Emotions shouldn't meddle 

But settle? No... 

I know no other level, vessel or hustle 

I struggle with my muscle 

The hassle of this dabble 

Little as it may be... maybe it's crazy! 

Too easy to shuffle 

Too lazy to muddle... 

Haggle and gamble? 

Love is a drug but this isn't the Matrix!

Red pill? Blue pill? 

No pills - but my illness? Stress  

I mess with the need, feed the greed 

Freed through the need! 

Am I a friend in deed as 

I am a friend in need? 

Look, I'll leave before I leave - 

Pieces shattered & clattered 

Broken and never spoken... 

Of hearts and sorrows I've borrowed 

Burrowed brows, older bros 

Wanna bury me down burrowed holes... 

It's time I called it time 

Next time I'll have time 

Won't slam, crash then resign 

But for now I'm resigned 

Realigned... 

Defined... 

Refined 

Rewind and play again... 

Life begins! 

Kevin Mutembei. 

Nov 2013

His Story - Your Story... Defined?

How we made in the image? 

Same...?  

You insane... imagine... INRI

King of the Jews... Nazarene? 

Maybe I'm in need of counselling! 

Holy trinity; father, son & spirit 

My spirit is conscious, cautious 

Apprehensive as I am tentative... 

Pensive, derisive and responsive! 

Hope this is clear - am I audible? 

Lend me your ear, I'll release your fear 

Trust! 

His story should not be your story! 

Truth? 

Your destination is not my destiny! 

Your resignation is plain ignorance! 

My indignation is not arrogance 

Dunce! Dancing to your drumming! 

Did I mention I'm refined? 

No? 

Neither defined nor Devine! 

Rewind? 

I said I'm polished not Polish 

Not a god but some call me bold! 

Not Bond but the three numbers 

Described that you subscribe to. 

Eventually lead to your demise! 

Revise your mind, 

Evade not what was erased 

King James revised his story 

Believe he's not sorry and 

It's not your story - but 

His story and history is defined 

By scholars and story tellers! 

Sellers of mares day and night. 

Touting tales of horror while our 

Faces show terror that controls 

The masses through masses!  

I'd tell you but you've resigned 

To resign with signs undefined 

Mayan tales realised through centuries 

Released through time but time 

Is for the living... Write your story! 

Kevin Mutembei. 

Nov 2013. 

Complex Fantasies

Short lived fantasies of memories that create nightmares. 

Everybody has his story to tell but... 

History is full of Hollywood facts; 

Fiction defined by diction and the actions of a few - 

But not good men; 

In due course to be repeated again. 

His story repeats on a loop controlled by time and in time. 

My story lacks glamour but my dramas 

Are real - live...as I live through life, 

Drill through barriers - areas that challenge and seek revenge - 

Attempts to mend... 

A broken heart that seeks love in places 

It never lived and never will. 

A rose may be a rose... but remember... 

Even the prettiest rose grows thorns. 

Kevin Mutembei. 

June 2013. 

Everything and Nothing

To know everything - 

Everything there is 

To know - is 

To know nothing. 

For 

As much as you 

Know everything, 

You know nothing. 

Nothing is everything 

And everything is nothing. 

Kevin Mutembei. 

We All Lose / Truth Sets You Free

We all lose..
Though none of us choose!
We'd call 'truce'...
However, truth
Moves like water through fire.
We all lie!
Although, sometimes,
We may try,
Most times we slide.
That we'll die is -
Inevitable.
Unstoppable.
Untenable, sometimes...
But maintain, remain holding sane
Stay in your lane,
Pray you remain...
Sane not insane...
Same symphony we sing
"Save us sinners now and at the hour of our death".
Brother believe...truth sets you free!
Though it may not seem to be!
For we all lose; some more than me
But the truth has set me free!


K Mutembei.
May 2013

I am cold - crown the king.

I am cold
Though maybe that news is old
Or perhaps so I have been told
That not all that glitters is gold
I was never one to be bold
But now I find myself off this road
And yes its true I'm getting old
But no its not so-my soul I sold
Its my heart I've had to mould
Grown into stages untold
Discovering mysteries so old
In love and commitment I rolled
Into a story I thought familiar I'm bound
Everyday a new chapter unfolds
But the evils at night still hound
Strength inside one man I found
The king in me will be crowned.

Kevin Mutembei.
2011

Happy New Year!

Happy new year!
Lets bring it in with cheer
In the clear do leave the year
Passed in the past-it's over!
And as you start this journey over
12 months of memories hover over
Cover, reprise, release and re-cover
Be strong!
Be resolute!
For yesteryear
Is here no more!
Happy new year!
After we bring it in with cheer
Make sure you're clear about this year
For time maybe a healer
But she's also a killer!


Kevin Mutembei.
01.01.2013